Well...

Eating healthy has been going well. Went from 188/190 to 186lbs and its only day 3. I've been downing my water like crazy. about 8 cups or so. Im going to try to get a whole gallon in a day. Its really flushing my water out. Look for the Clear Urine! I know TMI but foreal lol. Been eating lots of veggies , some fruit and chicken! Dad ate all my chicken for the week so ima make Tilapia today with asparagus and broccoli. Possible leg day today with some cardio. 

So I had a tough night last night. Found some stuff out and its something that is a very emotional topic for me. Kinda of took it out on my bf. Horrible head ache afterwards. I will admit when it comes to stress like that I tend to binge eat. I did stop at the gas station and had a Baby Ruth, not so baby size lol. Came home and couldn't stop eating Rancherito chips lol. But all in all I had a god eating day. Remember baby steps is the key. 

I didn't gain all this weight in one day, it's not going to come off in a day either.

On the brighter side. We are planning a family vacation to Texas; most likely going to SeaWorld and swimming with the Dolphins. Super excited about that and I can't wait. My baby's excited about that too. He says he's going to teach the dolphins how to swim lol. Cute.

Not going to write too much today, still a little down. Will be going to the gym in an hr or so. Take some stress off hopefully. 

Thanks for visiting !

New Lifestyle change

I have recently embarked in a new journey to a healthy life style change. 

It's not going so well.

Im trying to keep a positive outlook and keep in mind that it is going to take time...

Our society today has embedded in us the WANT for instant gratification and that is not how things are done. Good things take time and dedication. Although I am trying to be dedicated I have a few factors that are in some way keeping me from it.

One being my "amazing bf"; he loves to go out and eat and although I've told him countless of times that it effects my life style change he still has not gotten the clue that I can't say NO to him. Every time that we are together its always going out to eat, going to the store to make him something to eat and my "diet" fails. it's starting to get really frustrating and its hurting me. Weight loss wise and I guess emotionally as well. I can't sleep eight now because 3 out of the past 5/6 days that we have been together we have ordered pizza, gone to BWW, and today we went to a japanese buffet. 

Im not trying to pin all the blame on him but it makes it pretty damn hard for me to stick to my healthy life style. 

I have been learning that I have a bad relationship with food. I see it as a need of satisfaction and comfort which has lead me to bing eat and feel guilty and therefore leading to weight gain. Its been horrible for me; and im just now realizing how bad it has gotten. I guess I've seen food as "its always been there for me at my worst and lonely times". and I don't want that for myself anymore. 

Help...

Get to Know Me 1st

Lets get the important stuff out of the way. Im a 23 year old "pre"nursing, licensed nail tech, CNA,  semi-single mother of a 3 (almost 4) year old boy. 

*PHEW* lol 

Lets start with "SEMI-SINGLE"; I am not in a relationship with my sons dad but, I am in a relationship with an absolutely amazing guy who has been with us for a year and a half now. :D

I am a licensed nail tech and you will be seeing a lot of my work on here along with rants about being a CNA and a "pre"nursing student.

Now, lets talk about being a "pre"nursing student. I was accepted into the Nursing Program in the Fall of 2012. And boy what a semester it was. Needless to say I wasn't "successful" in my 1st semester so I am once again a "pre"nursing student. Don't you wish you could have seen my blogs just a few months back when I was going through that ! NOT! You would have HATED me lol. But anyways, you will be hearing a lot of my rants about how that is going, when I start up again. Currently in the process of retaking the TEAS V (entrance exam) for the, not 2nd, not 3rd BUT 4th TIME! :P 
That will be taken on March 23, 2013 at 9am!

Ok so some side notes. I am in no way a "professional blogger" if that's even a real term. So don't criticize my writing skills or grammar. Reading/writing was always my WORST subject ever and this is a FOR FUN/BLOW SOME STEAM OFF blog.

Other than that, thanks for tuning in and reading about me. 
PLEASE feel free to leave questions or comments (nice ones)! 
:D 
Have a fantastic day Bloggers <3